Thank you very much

Thank you very much for sharing, sharing about me to everyone else, for telling my secrets to everyone else.  I trusted you by telling my secret to you but you didn’t have respect for what I have told you and you tell everyone else about it. You should know that the people you tell about me are also my friends. 

They will tell me or ask me about what you told them. Of course they will since they all are curious to know whether it is true or not and also to know more about it. Even if not, they will tell someone else and that person will come to me. This is what they call chain link. Even if they did not say that you were the one that tell them, I can narrow it down to a very few who could have told because not many people know about me. 

I’m not sure whether you are the one who told to all the people or not but I know for sure that you are the one who told few of them. I know you have been telling people about me for a long time now but I act as if I didn’t notice. Now i'm even hearing some rumors about me which are not true. I'm not sure whether is that you who spread it or someone else but i will find out about it soon enough.

If I want to, I could tell everyone else about you, since you also have shared with me about your secrets. But I would not do that because I’m not like you and don’t want to be like you. But thanks for letting me know that I could not trust you with any of my secrets. Don’t worry, I would not hold grudge against you, because I know we all are humans and we all have some weaknesses but I know that you can never be trusted with secrets.

Lies...

Some people thinks that it is better to lie rather than telling the truth and hurt people’s feeling but sometimes, it’s not as good as they think. I know sometimes truth hurts, but when we have figured it out that what they were telling was a lie, the disappointment is just unbearable. I have been in so many situations where I have been lied to. 

They think they can get away with the lies. They think they can hide the truth from me but they do not know that there are so many prove of the actual thing. If only they told me truth, I would have understood their situation. They think I would not understand and that is what made me disappointed. For such a long time they know me, they still don’t know me. When they lie to me, it shows that they don’t know and don’t believe me. 

Eventhough I know the truth, I would just pretend as if I don’t know anything and listen to them lying. They think they can get away with the lies but no matter how hard you try to hide the truth, I will find out eventually. So just tell me the truth. For those who think that this is about them, it might be you or it could be someone else. 

Guys and girls are really different

Guys and girls are really different in their behavior and thinking. Guys will find it is hard to understand girls and maybe girls will find it is hard to understand guys but I’m not sure la.. But I know for sure that guys will find it is hard that’s why there is a saying that ‘only a girl can understand a girl’. 

There is a theory where it says that man and woman are different because of the way they live last time. The men will go hunting and woman stay at home caring for their children and collecting food. I have read before in a book where it says that guys are from Mars and girls are from Venus. They also give few examples and i guess it is true. 

Eventhough we are different, we still have to co-exist together because we could not live without each other. Of course we can but what kind of live would it be?

Hiking

I have only go hiking after I came to UNIMAS.  I have never hiked an mountain before this.I have hiked Mount Santubong 3 times and Mount Gading once. My friends and I have reached the top of Mount Santubong all the three times but did not reach the top of Mount Gading eventhough it is shorter than Santubong. This is because we went to Mount Gading for its waterfall not for hiking so we just spend our time there by swimming and not hiking. Compare to Mount Santubong, Mount Gading is really easy and more relax to hike.

I went for hiking each time with different friends except for few friends of mine who likes to hike each time we go. Each time I go hiking, I will feel like i gain a new experience. Maybe it’s because I always go with different people. I would never forget my first time experience of hiking the mount santubong where I did not bring any water and my friends also did not bring sufficient water for themselves. On the way down, I could not even taste the food that I put in my mouth because I don’t even have saliva any more. That’s why we bring extra water for the second and third time we went hiking. At the end of the first time I went hiking, I say to my friends that I would never go hiking in my life again. And then what you know? I went hiking again to the same place for the second and third time and there is a possibility for the fourth time. 

On the second time we went hiking, my friend ask me whether want to go hiking or not end of the year. I told her that I would not say that I will join because if I did, I will surely come again the next month which is before the scheduled time since before this I told people that I would never come again but I did come again the next year. Even when I did not say that I will join, I went hiking for the third time within the same year. Most probably I will go again the next year if everything goes to the plan that my friend make. I wonder who will go with us at that time.

First time hiking Mount Santubong

 

Second time hiking Mount Santubong

Third time hiking Mount Santubong

Graduation

We all still haven't grad, but i become very enthusiasted and made this video clip from most of the pictures we took during our orientations the whole three years. I hope you all will enjoy it.

We all are different

All of us are different and unique, that is what makes us special. There are no people who are same with other people. Even twins are different among each other. Each of us for sure have some characteristic that separates us from other people and make us special. Even if we didn’t realize it, surely people around us would have. If all of us look the same and act same, we will be no different from mere robots. Every people that we see will make us feel like looking at the mirror. 

Some of us are kind, nice, polite or hardworking but there are also some who are rude, lazy or annoying. But this is what make us ourself. If you want to meet someone that is just the same with you, just look at the mirror because no one can be more similar to you than that. When there are many different types of people together, life would be more interesting and fun. Life is short, so let’s enjoy it together. 

A secret is a secret

Everyone have secrets which can be small or big. Some people will share their secret with the people they truly trust and some would not even tell a soul. Secret is a matter or information that you don’t want to leak out to anyone and want it to be hidden. All of us surely don’t want to leak out our own secret right... So why do we leak out the secret that people tell us? 

To be honest, I do like to hear people tell me about their own and my friend’s secret, this shows how much they trust me but at the same time I would think that can I trust them with my secrets? They are telling me other people’s secret so surely they can tell other people about my secrets. Will they like it if other people tell their secret to other people? This is why I don’t tell people the secret that I know about other people, because I don’t like people tell my secret to other people as well. 

It would be alright if they tell their friend’s secret to a a person who wouldn’t tell anyone but if it reaches the ears of a busybody or someone who could not keep secret… what could happen? It is hard to find people who are willing to keep only the secrets to themselves only. Sometimes, eventhough we don’t want to leak the secret, but sometimes it will come out of our mouth accidentally, well… we are humans after all so we can do mistake sometimes so it is forgivable. But if these mistakes happen too occasionally, can it be called accident? 

Some of the secrets only affect the owner of the secret but sometimes it could also affect other people. When it involves other people, it would cause a greater damage if it ever leaks out. How much chaos can be caused if all the secrets were to leak out. Think about it…